At first I thought it was a recurring nightmare, and that I had been transported back in space and time to all that I wanted to forget. It wasn’t just disappointment that coursed through my veins, it was an utter horror that it was happening again. Again.
Oh, I have “been there, done that” and that’s what I would say if anyone asked. I would not hesitate to say that yes, that lesson has been learned, thoroughly. But I knew I was still vulnerable. Very, very vulnerable. It’s some stupid thing about when your heart’s involved.
The fear that surged when I glimpsed her was quenched in the next moment when I realized, it couldn’t be her. I knew where she was, and it wasn’t with me! While the skinny girl standing some ten feet away looking towards the bank of elevators waited. I had come in from another entrance that she wasn’t supposed to know about. She had arrived just yesterday. She was looking around when she suddenly spotted me, and smiled haltingly. She couldn’t have missed me, as I had been staring at her intently.
Her smile was as uncertain as I was feeling. After all, she didn’t know me either. But I felt more than just the weightlessness of zero expectations, I felt trapped in a deja vu, deflated in a most peculiar way. As if I still wanted her to be the person I had sworn to forget, the person who seemingly I had forgiven and put aside. And maybe life isn’t that simple.
And so the journey began.
Maverick Misfit 
I am so desperately looking forward to read the next part. And yes, when a heart is involved – we end up being so vulnerable. Our strength, courage, determination and every fucking thing fades away, then. No wonder why! 😉
Anyway, have already got too many questions on my mind. “If she wasn't with him, where was she? Dead? With someone else? Never existed?”
Ah, but, anyway, looking forward for the next part(s)! 😉
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Very nice ,but I will ask questions when I read the next part
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Wow nice.. Waitin for the next part.. 🙂
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@Arjit: Well, you are right about the “part(s)”, I dunno how many are there but I don't think it's one… Basically, it is a complicated 'true' story that I am fiction-izing and writing in parts. Does that sound like it's a soap?! 😛 😀
BKChowla-ji: Firstly, I have the story in my head as of now, that too in several parts because these are actually real people and incidents. Almost. I hope you will read the whole of it! :))
P.S. I don't worry about Indirank really. But the recent drop made me laugh, and that made me feel free.
@Manna: I won't be able to finish in a single part. And so I hope you stick around for as many as I can churn out! 😀
P.S.Your words and your gestures make me happy, and all warm even in the cold. Thanks so much, dear!
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@Guria
Yes, it indeed does sound like a sop. But, anyway I am game for a quickie bath with a good soap. :p
PS: No more spamming your comments section, now.
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okay then? what next? waitin for the next part
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