Catharsis Part IX: New Beginnings

Even as I typed the title of the post, I was marveling how deep and true the words I was writing were.
A new year. A new blog. A new way of life. A new me.
Like clockwork, the way it is supposed to be, 365 days come to an end marking a new beginning, a new that is so predictable and yet isn’t. All alone, cooped up by choice I spend the day alone, with nothing but my laptop and a messy room. Wondering not what the new year will bring, but what I will make out of the new year. It is always ever in our hands.
A new blog address. Against much procrastination but the dormant lust for my own domain, I finally went ahead and got my own… www.themisfitgirl.com It seemed apt. I really think of myself as “the Misfit Girl”. I remembered Shruti of Hits and Misses who was the first ever to call me that.
And a new life. A few days of the recent past, I was alive. And to go back from that to the usual mechanical grind, it needs courage. Depression beckons me. And I fight harder. I’ll not let loneliness and melancholia take me over. I am not me for nothing!
But it is odd how time runs so fast when you want it to slow down and how time stretches when you really want it to zoom by. Or is it human fallacy again?
Work is the only solution. After all it was the primary reason. And I want no time to think, no time to let the clog in my throat or the burning in my eyes overwhelm me.
Another new year. Yet another new beginning. And another chance!
Let it be worthwhile. Let it be remembered for all the good nei great things in spite of all that I am without.
P.S. It is only here that I can cry and not be ashamed. For no one knows there are tears albeit dried ones.
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About Guria

An Artist in Science - I am a Misfit 'cause I choose to be one. "Whenever you find that you are on the side of the majority, it is time to reform" And I am a Maverick, because, I'm... umm... brilliant?
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14 Responses to Catharsis Part IX: New Beginnings

  1. Happy New Year Guria. I do hope you can make the best of 2011. I can understand what you are going through…go through that myself every now and then. Ups and downs in terms of moods. The melancholia can hit worst during the holidays when things that are normally routine such as work are not taking place. Take care.

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  2. Bikramjit says:

    A happy new year to you and everyone around you…

    And all the best for everything you do Cheer up and God bless

    Bikram's

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  3. Ro says:

    know that you are not alone.
    love the new blog – name, pic and all.

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  4. Guria says:

    Thanks Psych Babbler. Happy New Year to you! May happiness be a constant companion.

    Thanks Bikram. Have a great year.

    Thanks Ro.
    If you are the one I call Ro, you were my first friend here, I'm happy you like the way MM looks now!

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  5. Ro says:

    I sure am. 🙂
    I sent you a mail @your gmail and FB.. hope to get back in touch with you..

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  6. Neha says:

    congratulations for the new domain. tc

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  7. Shrikant says:

    Congratulations for http://www.themisfitgirl.com

    And I fully agree with you that moroseness and depression hit the worse when the mind is idle.. work seems to drown it all be it temporarily!!

    Take care!! HNY 2011!!

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  8. Shrikant says:

    Congratulations for http://www.themisfitgirl.com

    And I fully agree with you that moroseness and depression hit the worse when the mind is idle.. work seems to drown it all be it temporarily!!

    Take care!! HNY 2011!!

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  9. Maverick says:

    Congrats on the new blog…its been a year since i have had the privilege of knowing you as a writer…my namesake! 🙂

    its difficult…this life..the way it treats us…bt still ders solace in the fact that we have an expression in the form of our words…mebbe nt enuf…bt certainly a vent…

    just tc alrite….hope the new year holds better things fr u! 🙂

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  10. Lovely… finally you listened…and removed that complex name….congrats….:)

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  11. cool! finally your own domain, Misfit gal 🙂
    Happy new yr!! 🙂

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  12. aativas says:

    Oh! But 'misfitness' is due to 'maverickness' .. I thought so, I will miss that lovely word! But I guess (and hope), you are not changing the name of the blog 🙂

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  13. Harini says:

    Happy New year G. Unfortunately all the feelings are part and parcel of life. Congrats on the domain though :).

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  14. PriPat says:

    Happy new year!! Life is a roller coater ride!

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