I hated you into the night,
Till the darkness shrouded me under
And I could lie no more-
All of me dissolved into tears
Of ache, and helpless despair
Imploring and begging,
Asking why was it that,
When I tried and tried again,
But I couldn’t hate you any more.
I saw you with naked eyes
I saw all the scars,
I saw every flaw-
Stark, bright in the dark.
I thought, with the fading glow
With the lack of stage-lights,
I’ll see you for who you are
Ugly, uncaring and false
And move on, thinking
That you are none but a farce.
But the truth scared me worse,
When I faltered in my stride-
The scars faded right before me
Even as I looked on.
I filled with an unknown pride
Reeling, knowing that you were mine,
Imperfections and all, every high and fall,
Even when you were hated by all.
Was it for I could see, right into your soul?
For I knew you, what was known by few?
Is that why I saw less? For I saw more? *
And saw only the beauty that was you?
Oh, I want to hate you, and please not be hurt any more.
But I’d may sooner stop breathing than not be yours.
Till the darkness shrouded me under
And I could lie no more-
All of me dissolved into tears
Of ache, and helpless despair
Imploring and begging,
Asking why was it that,
When I tried and tried again,
But I couldn’t hate you any more.
I saw you with naked eyes
I saw all the scars,
I saw every flaw-
Stark, bright in the dark.
I thought, with the fading glow
With the lack of stage-lights,
I’ll see you for who you are
Ugly, uncaring and false
And move on, thinking
That you are none but a farce.
But the truth scared me worse,
When I faltered in my stride-
The scars faded right before me
Even as I looked on.
I filled with an unknown pride
Reeling, knowing that you were mine,
Imperfections and all, every high and fall,
Even when you were hated by all.
Was it for I could see, right into your soul?
For I knew you, what was known by few?
Is that why I saw less? For I saw more? *
And saw only the beauty that was you?
Oh, I want to hate you, and please not be hurt any more.
But I’d may sooner stop breathing than not be yours.
*”Love is not blind – it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less.”
Maverick Misfit 
Very emotional post. I sincerely hope this is an imaginary one. If it is otherwise, I am very sorry. Please treat this as a passing cloud. Better future awaits you.
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Long time! Thankfully, this is not completely personal… but an “artistic” extension and expression of a bitter experience that I have long since dealt with 🙂 But thank you so much for your words.
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